Airplane back from Winnipeg, Blade Runner playing. As it started I read the credits, Harrison Ford, Edward Olmos, Daryl Hannah, Rutger Hauer and I thought how cool they got the old cast together. The film started with synth sounds which were awesome, what guts for 2017, then I realized this isn’t the new Blade Runner, it is the original. I watched anyway. Music so unlike what people settle for in big films. I also recently saw Downsizing, exactly the usual film score, usual use of strings and orchestra to say now you are sad, now it is suspenseful, now it is action. It works but it is in almost every film and there are a zillion other ways a creative musician could do things uniquely. Makes me want to scream, wake up, time to die.
Here Winnipeg, frozen river. Once, under Donald street bridge, took a chance walked slowly across it, there was a path after all of others who went before me. Same feeling as seeing clouds below, first time airborne. We took a different kind of chance as kids, sneaking at night into the ballroom of the Hotel Fort Garry just to play the piano in the cavernous dark. Played roulette this morning with Mastercard, they put me on hold, I muted them at random intervals, hoping to catch the real person and avoid pain of direct marketing messages. Worked. Heard the father of my childhood friend died but didn’t see an online obituary. Yesterday went to old folks home. Explained my reason for being there to the security guard. After he heard the name he smiled, “he’s alive I see him everyday”. This was probably a one time chance.
Animals are already in that space improvisors are trying to sniff out. They’re paying attention to every second, already living it. I used to think it was valuable to try seeing how long can I keep my consciousness tuned into the present like each step while walking, or each breath. People can’t maintain that very long but animals already live there. They are showing the way all the time.