Category Archives: War

beethoven, karma

On the back of an album of music by Beethoven, read when the piece was first performed he had to do an encore of it, meaning the whole 40 minute piece again. At that time people couldn’t hear it again unless it was live. I like rewinding, trying to see the before, would love to get a solid glimpse into my ancestors, generations back, where were they, who were they. Bet we’re all connected to murderers, rapists, saints, maybe artists. Someone from 5000 years ago, is in a way still alive because we are. The genes of my ancestors obviously weren’t very good at making cookies. That must be why it is a struggle for me but then again only tried once, a couple days ago. Maybe the instincts they passed to me were to judge too quickly or I got blogging genes. My dentist retired this year, he hated Beethoven. He was a bit of a classical music nerd and when he caught wind of my composition ambitions he said skip Beethoven, don’t waste your time there. Didn’t take his advice and fortunately the string quartets really kill me. Wonder if I’ll get the quartets I wrote recorded by people instead of Logic Pro X. Karma is a nice idea but I don’t believe in it. Too much that is evil goes to sleep at night pleased with itself and what it got away with.

on hold

I got her off script for just one moment. Can you please not play the horrible music while I’m on hold? She laughed and said no music? Yes I’m a musician. She laughed again, no problem I hate it too.
No doubt as surveillance cameras, wherever she is stationed, caught the unsanctioned response, she probably got fired.

what passes for thought

In the improvising world you work at listening (which changes what passes for thought). The extent to which you continue thinking is proportional to what is accomplished musically. That probably a big part of the draw for those who can’t stop, relief from ping pong of ordinary thinking. When is the bus going to arrive, what’s the forecast, what kind of wallpaper should we get, I need a new shirt, what’s for dinner. And anyone can get that by just tuning into experiencing all sound unfolding with the same attention they might give when meditation leaders tell people to just concentrate on their breath, in and out and let the thoughts just come and go like the current of a river. The attention of not being off in a fantasy but experiencing now-ness.