From her blog April 30th, 2014
a social worker met with me yesterday to ostensibly discuss how i’m doing with the prognosis i’ve been given.. her first question was, “so, well how do you feel about the decision you took to pursue your ‘naturopathic treatments’ (her emphasis not mine) you know, and now find yourself in this condition in hospital?”
“well, if i’m not mistaken, every single one of the patients in this ward are here after dutifully following their doctor’s advice to take chemo and radiation, have you asked them the same question? you know, how they feel after following standard of care and its promise of remission and greater quality of life, but find themselves in this condition in hospital?”
Michelle Bellerose died a few days ago, I found out earlier today. She was many more things than what I knew about her. I knew the club owner in St. Catharines, the vegetarian cook who’s restaurant won best of the decade from Now Magazine. She was also a musician and frank spiritual woman.
Most people who I talk to about open stages like Fat Alberts aren’t interested and don’t come. She did instantly and brought her bass and looping pedals and blew minds. It was beautiful.
I never knew about her artwork until she became sick and I saw the images in her blogs. Her blog about the path she walked these last months is especially meaningful to anyone trying to make sense out of your body and your health and the circumstances you will be up against if your instincts are different around healing vs. the systems of our medical establishments.
More from April 30th 2014
so yes. these are the decisions one has to face down, and i love being in the driver seat, i love not having to explain my choices, i love being in a contrary environment that requires that i take a 360 view into account and synthesize an approach that uniquely suits me but couriers in facts and reality, that i don’t just do what i’m told and stew about it on the sidelines as if i have no power when dialoguing with a medical authority. if we’re going to talk about evidence-based medicine, let’s really.