I sleep bad knowing I have to be up early to get my daughter to summer camp. I’m lying in bed, complaining to myself that I am not asleep. What does it say about the belief I am me? Who is it I am appealing to, to trust “me” and sleep. Who am I trying to convince that the alarm clock will not fail and I will be responsible? If I had to catch an airplane early or show up for an early interview, same problem. How is it the part that talks to itself, as if reporting on its own existence, also believes it is steering this body but is also submissive to the knowing something else is ultimately controlling and overriding things through autopilot. Who programmed? I want to do something new in the Bb piece, I tell myself the idea as if there is another myself who will consider the first myself’s desire. How is it only very few see this the same and most are good adjusting to more commercials over the air.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"