In the early 90s I was asked by a theatre group to play the role of Kurt Weil in a play and I agreed but that experience left me realizing I’m not a good actor. I didn’t understand what to do and nothing anyone said did much to end my confusion.

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In the 2000s, after I met Anand he asked me to do the music for a play he wrote and when I read the play I told him if I was an actor it would interest me to play one of the characters to which he replied then you must to which I replied no no no I’m not a very good actor. I just think if I was an actor this would be a juicy role to which he replied that’s a great reason I insist you do it, to which I said the only reason I would do it is because I wonder why I am such a bad actor but I don’t think that is a good reason to use someone like me in your play to which he said no no no that is indeed a great reason, you must do it, to which i said ok it’s your funeral.

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Funeral might be the right word since we had some difficulties making all the elements work and we closed without completing our run but it was amazing. And even though I still didn’t solve my problem it didn’t matter because I got so much out of the experience plus many new friendships. .At some point, probably from befriending people in comedy, I realized the ones who were the most interesting were also the ones who didn’t care if they looked dumb. Knocked me out of my chair when I saw that and then I was asked to act in a film where I played a weird concierge. I was very pleased to be weirder and weirder, whatever the director wanted. Everyone was satisfied especially me because the distraction of thinking about what I looked like was no longer so prominent. That’s one thing songs that bore me have in common, they wreak at trying to control how they look.