i do not have enough hours in the day to get it all done. over and over i’m up so late trying to complete things while running on less and less energy. how did that warren zevon song go? i lay my head on the railway track waiting for on the double E, but the train don’t run here no more poor poor pitiful me. now at school they want to discuss our journals, mine has unfiltered observations and criticisms. should i be brave and share it out loud? i don’t think so. more than half the time when people say they want to hear criticism, if it’s negative they become hurt and resentful. i need more signs that it is safe or authentic before i consider believing them. i know people laugh or even ridicule chuck berry’s attitude long after he was established, to not take the stage, even big secure gigs like Ontario Place until he’s paid in cash. i get it.