enjoyed watching soozie give esmé her 2cnd violin lesson, especially the double stops part and when they jammed and when she imitated her father’s voice. enjoyed the mango ice with black tapioca balls before the lesson. enjoyed bouncing a piece of string in front of her fattest cat who then became a gymnast as all cats do when strings come to life reminding me of last term’s song students and all their god fights,

“there has to be god because something had to have invented everything”,

“but if something has to invent everything, then something has to have invented the thing that is inventing everything, but that can’t work unless you concede the universe has no starting point”

” you sound like you don’t believe in god?”

” you sound like you don’t believe in rational deduction”

“you sound like you like Yoko Ono”

“you sound like you like Susan Boyle” “what’s wrong with Susan Boyle?”

“how can you have god as something that invented everything?”

“i can’t accept the world wasn’t created by something”

“what if existence has no beginning or end? we revise the origins of the universe all the time because we don’t know anything or we keep learning new things that change our previous perceptions. who knows how many more times we will be derailed by new ideas about the universe?”

“you’re saying everything just is and nothing invented it?”

“when you bounce a string in front of a cat it thinks it is a separate living entity but it isn’t, it’s just like a puppet but the cat can’t comprehend that.”

“so now i’m a cat”

“for as long as you think the string is alive, yeah.”

“but isn’t it a depressing world if you stop believing in god? “you don’t hear me”

“well then what do you believe in?”

“it isn’t about what i believe in, it’s about inspecting the design of things. it’s like asking why do people want to have that story. wouldn’t it be more useful for the cat to know the string isn’t a living thing? that it’s believing in something that isn’t there?”

“you think i’m being fooled by Susan Boyle?”

“i think your questions obstruct seeing bigger pictures”