hard to not cry

I was too young to get into the cinema to see it but Phil, who was seven years older said he could get me in. I was nervous in line at the Gaitey on Portage avenue across from the Bay. Felt like I was going to get into trouble but when it was our turn in the crowded line Phil said to the cashier Two Adults, and when she started to ask how old I was, Phil, an imposing large man who studied acting, said in a louder angrier voice Two Adults! And she was scared and took his money, waved us through. For me, he did an impossible magic trick and experiencing the actual movie One Flew Over The Cuckoo’s Nest was life changing. Hard to not have tears in your eyes when you get to the part of Louise Fletcher’s obituary, that during her acceptance speech for best actress in the Milos Forman film, she stops and signs to her deaf parents, “you are witnessing my dream coming true”. Phil died about twenty years ago, he had a lot of people in his life who saw him exactly like either I did or the cashier did. I wrote a song about him on my last record, Portrait of Phil at Various Times in A Closet.

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