I am playing a poker game with one of many employers. I am good with losing if that is my fate. It occurs to me this might be the best stance a poker player can have because of the converse, that the risk works out in one’s favour. Those are the stakes even when you improvise. I have been transposing many songs from guitar to piano and last Monday played an old one before the open stage crowd which was tricky because it was in five. Trickier because I only knew it on guitar. Soon realized it was not working but stayed the course, unsure how it sounded. Just because I didn’t yet experience what I hoped for doesn’t necessarily mean it is everyone else’s experience. You never figure these things out until putting yourself out a few times, becoming repositioned, then you are informed differently how to do it next time. In a way a less than desirable experience sets you up for next time. I told the employer I could not work five days a week as they requested, I suggested I do two. It seemed to me that might end our relationship, they said could not accommodate any changes and I can deal with it. Out of the blue they wrote there may be a way to make it work. The game or the performance, same thing.